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Mar. 24th, 2003 11:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
htothehIt is, most certainly and without a doubt, bed time. And yet... I don't really want to sleep. I'm in an odd sort of mood right now.
I want a road map. The beginning of my life was planned out so neatly; school, lessons of interesting things. Moving when that's what parents said I had to do. I haven't had to make many major decisions. Maybe that's why the idea of finishing high school scares me so much. New people, a new place... and I get to make all of the decisions. I suspect it will be very good for me. I just don't want to have to choose. Suppose I screw up? No save points. Poor design for the world, that.
Why can't God be more overt? They say that He has a plan. I wish He would share, because I really want to know what I'm supposed to be doing. I want to know for sure if He's there. There's no way to know, and this bothers me to no end. I don't think I'll ever be able to believe with every fiber of my being in something I can't see and can't prove. Sure, one can say that it's obvious that there's a hand that created the world. I think that there must have been a Creator.
But I've never met Him. Or Her. Or Them.
That's why religion pisses me off. There are so many people who are wrong, who have to be wrong, since there are so many condradictory doctrines. But there's no surety until after death, in which case the point is moot anyway.
It would be nice if it were like the Disc--where everyone goes to what they believe in. But again, this means that someone is wrong.
Who invented religion, anyway? Bastard.
I want a road map. The beginning of my life was planned out so neatly; school, lessons of interesting things. Moving when that's what parents said I had to do. I haven't had to make many major decisions. Maybe that's why the idea of finishing high school scares me so much. New people, a new place... and I get to make all of the decisions. I suspect it will be very good for me. I just don't want to have to choose. Suppose I screw up? No save points. Poor design for the world, that.
Why can't God be more overt? They say that He has a plan. I wish He would share, because I really want to know what I'm supposed to be doing. I want to know for sure if He's there. There's no way to know, and this bothers me to no end. I don't think I'll ever be able to believe with every fiber of my being in something I can't see and can't prove. Sure, one can say that it's obvious that there's a hand that created the world. I think that there must have been a Creator.
But I've never met Him. Or Her. Or Them.
That's why religion pisses me off. There are so many people who are wrong, who have to be wrong, since there are so many condradictory doctrines. But there's no surety until after death, in which case the point is moot anyway.
It would be nice if it were like the Disc--where everyone goes to what they believe in. But again, this means that someone is wrong.
Who invented religion, anyway? Bastard.
