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Oct. 2nd, 2005 12:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
htothehI am such a slug. I know college students are supposed to sleep, but this is ridiculous.
I guess this is what staying up 'til all hours, watching Boondock Saints and playing Super Smash Bros. will do to you. I need to remember not to do this anymore. I am not a partyer; getting out of bed four hours after my roommate is bad. So is being too tired to change into pajamas and brush my teeth. Bad. And there even wasn't any alcohol involved.
At least I got my CS homework done yesterday.
My binder is still in the guys' room.
Argh. This was not a bad weekend, but staying up that late is bad for Hannahs, thus potentially making it a bad weekend. Especially since I missed breakfast--who does that on weekends!? Hoch is open until 12:30 for crying out loud.
I've been here two months now, or very close to it. At SI, I felt like this was my chance to start over. I didn't have to be invisible anymore, or feel like it. I didn't feel like I fit into anywhere for a while, but I think that was a bit because I was trying to get into that new position, with new people and new friends. Now I'm super happy with who I am and where I am in my life, but at the same time, I don't think I'm anything like what I was before. This bothers me a little bit--how did I change so much in just two months?
I was spending most of my time with Camilo and his roommate, which was okay by me, because we were friends first, and Rudy is a really good friends now, and I'm even branching out past that--I have friends who aren't my boyfriend, which is excellent. The thing is, they're the kind of people who are awesome, but I never would have talked to in high school. I'm feeling a little insecure about this, and I'm not sure why. Maybe I'm worried that they'll Find Out that I'm actually a loser. And I'm still That Girl; you know, the one who's always attached to her boyfriend. Is this okay in college?
Interpersonal relationships suck so much. I like other people, but not having to deal with stuff.
I'm actually okay. It's just a little homesickness, and a little bit of out-of-placeness, which sound like they could be the same thing and actually aren't. I miss the way things used to be, but I know that I probably couldn't go back now if I wanted to. After all, I've now played Blank White Cards and ended up sitting in Awesomewood in my underwear, having volunteered to take my pants off, after having spent an evening rock climbing and going to dinner with eleven other people in one car.
No alcohol was involved then, either. And it was okay, because everyone else was in their underwear, too. But you see my point, I think.
I guess this is what staying up 'til all hours, watching Boondock Saints and playing Super Smash Bros. will do to you. I need to remember not to do this anymore. I am not a partyer; getting out of bed four hours after my roommate is bad. So is being too tired to change into pajamas and brush my teeth. Bad. And there even wasn't any alcohol involved.
At least I got my CS homework done yesterday.
My binder is still in the guys' room.
Argh. This was not a bad weekend, but staying up that late is bad for Hannahs, thus potentially making it a bad weekend. Especially since I missed breakfast--who does that on weekends!? Hoch is open until 12:30 for crying out loud.
I've been here two months now, or very close to it. At SI, I felt like this was my chance to start over. I didn't have to be invisible anymore, or feel like it. I didn't feel like I fit into anywhere for a while, but I think that was a bit because I was trying to get into that new position, with new people and new friends. Now I'm super happy with who I am and where I am in my life, but at the same time, I don't think I'm anything like what I was before. This bothers me a little bit--how did I change so much in just two months?
I was spending most of my time with Camilo and his roommate, which was okay by me, because we were friends first, and Rudy is a really good friends now, and I'm even branching out past that--I have friends who aren't my boyfriend, which is excellent. The thing is, they're the kind of people who are awesome, but I never would have talked to in high school. I'm feeling a little insecure about this, and I'm not sure why. Maybe I'm worried that they'll Find Out that I'm actually a loser. And I'm still That Girl; you know, the one who's always attached to her boyfriend. Is this okay in college?
Interpersonal relationships suck so much. I like other people, but not having to deal with stuff.
I'm actually okay. It's just a little homesickness, and a little bit of out-of-placeness, which sound like they could be the same thing and actually aren't. I miss the way things used to be, but I know that I probably couldn't go back now if I wanted to. After all, I've now played Blank White Cards and ended up sitting in Awesomewood in my underwear, having volunteered to take my pants off, after having spent an evening rock climbing and going to dinner with eleven other people in one car.
No alcohol was involved then, either. And it was okay, because everyone else was in their underwear, too. But you see my point, I think.
