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Jul. 26th, 2006 01:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
htothehThere's a little twitch in the muscle on the inside of my right arm, right near the elbow, and my back is very, very stiff. Popping vertebrae can be fun, but I'd like it better if I were actually capable of relaxation in contrast.
I'm driving a couple of kids to a basketball camp at State this week, since I'm headed there mornings anyway, and they live nearby. I've mentally tagged them as the surly adolescent boys. They're good kids, but they make me feel old--the older one said yesterday morning, when he got in the car, something about how everyone was going to freak out about his hair. I hadn't even really noticed he got it cut, although that had more to do with the fact that I was watching the road and not his hair. I know I was that young and self-conscious, and still am, really. Four years is really not that much. I just feel kind of old and tired and adult-like, especially when I hear myself say things like "I prefer not to have words like that in my car," which, completely justified, but... old.
On the other hand, I made cookies last night. I've been having an oatmeal cookie craving, so I assuaged it. The recipe on the bottom of the Quaker Oats can lid is awesome. Never have I seen cookies made with it come out poorly. Also I sung along to "Be Prepared" on the way home from class, and realized that I still know all the words, to it and probably the rest of The Lion King soundtrack as well. Ah, childhood memories. And Hambourger made me feel guilty before class today by telling me that Auerbach had said good things about me to him. So I actually took notes, and paid attention and stuff. I almost wish that this was a full-semester class, because I'm sort of starting to get used to him. Kind of. A little. And the class is almost over, so I won't really get a chance to really be able to appreciate it, I don't think.
Been feeling shitty and unproductive. This is not really the case, I suppose, seeing as how I go to class every morning, and worked for five hours yesterday afternoon on Ruby, which was fun but kind of taxing, since it's all almost completely new to me, and made cookies. But still there is the shitty and unproductive feeling, probably because I'm spending far too much time on my computer doing nothing, which I could be doing things like finishing importing my settings from before the XP install, or working on final exam essay outlines, or working on my music library, or doing homework for CS5. I have no motivation and/or energy. This is not new. Learning to deal with this at some point would be a good thing to do.
Now I have to wait for an email from Bossman Chris to see if he wants me today.
I'm not allowed to be tired anymore. It's not like there's any reason for it.
I'm driving a couple of kids to a basketball camp at State this week, since I'm headed there mornings anyway, and they live nearby. I've mentally tagged them as the surly adolescent boys. They're good kids, but they make me feel old--the older one said yesterday morning, when he got in the car, something about how everyone was going to freak out about his hair. I hadn't even really noticed he got it cut, although that had more to do with the fact that I was watching the road and not his hair. I know I was that young and self-conscious, and still am, really. Four years is really not that much. I just feel kind of old and tired and adult-like, especially when I hear myself say things like "I prefer not to have words like that in my car," which, completely justified, but... old.
On the other hand, I made cookies last night. I've been having an oatmeal cookie craving, so I assuaged it. The recipe on the bottom of the Quaker Oats can lid is awesome. Never have I seen cookies made with it come out poorly. Also I sung along to "Be Prepared" on the way home from class, and realized that I still know all the words, to it and probably the rest of The Lion King soundtrack as well. Ah, childhood memories. And Hambourger made me feel guilty before class today by telling me that Auerbach had said good things about me to him. So I actually took notes, and paid attention and stuff. I almost wish that this was a full-semester class, because I'm sort of starting to get used to him. Kind of. A little. And the class is almost over, so I won't really get a chance to really be able to appreciate it, I don't think.
Been feeling shitty and unproductive. This is not really the case, I suppose, seeing as how I go to class every morning, and worked for five hours yesterday afternoon on Ruby, which was fun but kind of taxing, since it's all almost completely new to me, and made cookies. But still there is the shitty and unproductive feeling, probably because I'm spending far too much time on my computer doing nothing, which I could be doing things like finishing importing my settings from before the XP install, or working on final exam essay outlines, or working on my music library, or doing homework for CS5. I have no motivation and/or energy. This is not new. Learning to deal with this at some point would be a good thing to do.
Now I have to wait for an email from Bossman Chris to see if he wants me today.
I'm not allowed to be tired anymore. It's not like there's any reason for it.
