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Apr. 22nd, 2003 09:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
htothehI've had a lot of change in the past week or two, perhaps too much. I got drastically different glasses, lopped off over half of my hair, and got my driver's license. These are not bad things whatsoever; in fact, I love all of them. But together, I've lost my picture of who Hannah is. This is not necessarily a bad thing, either, just uncomfortable. It still takes me a minute to realize that the girl in the mirror, the one with the cute haircut and Seraphim-like glasses, is me. I think of The Matrix, where Neo wonders to Morpheus why he still looks the same as he did in the Matrix, even though he's physically different. One's picture of oneself is persistent. Given another couple of weeks, I'll get used to the New Me. But right now, this state of flux is unsettling. I find myself wanting my hair back, even though I like my hair the way it is, and will probably keep it for a while.
And the driver's license thing is just... odd. I cannot think of myself as being sixteen, and getting very close to being an independent adult. I keep wanting to be six again. There's not so much responsibility to deal with. The idea of being able to go anywhere as long as the gas money holds out scares me a little. I don't want to leave home, I DON'T, but it's coming whether I want it or not. I'll be a junior in a month and a half. An upperclassperson.
Eeep.
And the driver's license thing is just... odd. I cannot think of myself as being sixteen, and getting very close to being an independent adult. I keep wanting to be six again. There's not so much responsibility to deal with. The idea of being able to go anywhere as long as the gas money holds out scares me a little. I don't want to leave home, I DON'T, but it's coming whether I want it or not. I'll be a junior in a month and a half. An upperclassperson.
Eeep.
