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[htotheh]

Tonight is the kind of night that laptops are made for. I want to go and sit on the back deck and do what I'm doing here in my room with all the lights off, except for the ones running my computer screen and my stereo. This is a night for watching the stars and the fireflies, pointing out the particularly bright ones to a good friend providing company. Are fireflies out in June? We didn't have them in Alaska, so I've never held a firefly, never captured one in a jar and asked Mom if I could use it as a nightlight. Never stepped on one and had the phosphorescent goo on my shoe as a testiment to my crime.

This has already been one of my best summers ever. Last summer, I did approximately nothing the entire time. I don't remember getting together with friends very much, or even at all. I don't know if there were even people I wanted to spend much time with. There are this summer. And I have a car, newly connected to the wonderful world of CDs, which is an absolutely splendiferous change from summers past. It's incredibly freeing. I know that if I want to, and if the car is here, I can go anywhere I want as long as it's legal and I have the gas money. I don't know if that's sunk in yet. I feel like I'm taking the ability to go where ever I want to go for granted. I drove for two and a half hours or so on Monday, and it was just... something that I did. Quite nice, actually, but different.

I don't want to grow up. I feel very Peter Pan-ish saying it, but it's true. Growing up means that I will have responsibilities. I'll have to pay for my own gas. I'll have to worry about parking. I'll have to remember to change the oil every once in a while. I don't even know how often to change the oil. I feel completely unprepared for any responsibility past what I have now. If I have to remember to feed myself, I'll lose five pounds within the month.

I started writing to post a list of What I'm Going to Do This Summer, so that I don't end up doing what I did last summer -- that is, nothing. Might as well still do that.

So, without further ado: A List Of What I'm Going to Do This Summer

• Finish weeding the front lawn


• get out of the house at least once a week


• call someone at least every other day


• start running
  no, not Rincewind-type running. treadmill running.


• borrow someone's copy of Wheelock's Latin *puppy eyes**glares--stop laughing*


• get the CDs from the downstairs rack onto Merlin's hard drive


• go walking at night at least twice


• learn to play one song on guitar. just one.


• practice violin Wednesday/Friday/Sunday


• volunteer...somewhere


• watch the fireflies at least once
  corollary: hold a firefly


• put up a new blog template


• write something that I feel like I could publish. even if that publishing is only in Squonk.


• draw something that I feel, well, not like I could publish it, because I can't draw, but that doesn't exhibit the fact that I can't draw quite so flagrantly.
  flagrantly is such a great word.


• pick a week that is not one of the weeks I am at ASP. go the entire week without turning on my computer, or using any other computer in the house. oooooh....

This list will likely grow. We'll see how much of it I actually do...